The Loop pt33

I just read a friendz blog. I'll post a link to it sooner or later, If that meanz anything to anyone. I don't know why I keep writing these. Anyway, his blog got me thinking that itz time to stop being such an immature idiot that I am now. Yet at the same time, I don't want to change. Itz just what I am. I know what my intrestz for a career lie in, but really, am I doing anything to get there? I failed. Twice. I don't have the belief that I can change anything. Every day, I wake up, get pumped, und as soon as class startz, who am I kidding? I need to resort my priorityz. Badly. But I haven't found the will for it. Not at all. Why am I stuck at that? I just wish I could buck up to what I want to be. I try und then get distracted SO easily. My lack of human contact outside of school. I have tonz of negative moodletz floating around my head with the rest of my thoughtz und dreamz und what not. Itz just like my pocketz, or my room. It never stayz organized. Ha, maybe I'm just stuck here in a bad location of mind und cant pull out. Hopefully, thatz not the case. I'm not about to chase naught but dreamz, but what if I am? Only time will tell.
So, yes Rob, I am one who shrugz his sholderz. For now.